A bit too much

The past 2 weeks were very eventful. Everything was just a bit ...too much

Work- Too much stress
very busy at work week. I felt kinda frustrated lately.
I am trying to do my best everyday, a small appreciation is not demanding , right ?
The most supportive manager is leaving soon, honestly, I lost the motivation to work here already.

Personal- Too much to think, or thinking too much?
I was pretty sure what I needed until I saw you again. I know we are not going to work out, and I never thought about getting back together again since last Sept. but why am I still care about things you said or things you have done for me? Too much game involved. I always think " why can we just be honest to each other or honest to myself? " but i know, sometimes being too honest there is also a chance of getting hurt too.

Fun - Too much fun
Most of my friends are still in college and last week, they were having their spring break. Get the chance to see everyone, it was nice. You guys also proved me I am still not that old. I worked 8 hours, got out of work at 11:30pm..and still managed to go clubbing with you guys...3 times within a week. Plus, stayed up until 5am after work and drove one of my friends to the airport....
then going to Amherst ...totally black out , and throw up in my own car. It was fun and happy to see all my friends , real friends =)

Weeeeeeeeee

urgh, my sleeping schedule is all over the place. One night, I only had a 3 hours of sleep, the next day was 11 hours...dreams were all weird/ intense. god , leave me alone, I just need a good night sleep please.

In the past few days, I kept imagining myself working in Hong Kong. I am still not sure if I am ready to go back yet tho...I still have a lot of things planning to do here... let me put down all the goals for this year!

-Know more about this place ( Boston at least, try everything )

-Speak perfect English

-Try to call the guest by their last name ( yea..its a weird one..but it's kinda hard for me as an Asian pronounce those last names..)

-Get my job done perfectly EVERYDAY

-People reading ( another weird one...but believe it or not, if you pay more attention to everything around you, work could be done more efficiently/ perfectly)

um..that's all for now, but I am sure I will put more down later !
bye now !

It should not be whatever this time

Its February already !! I can't wait the coming of this summer! Its gonna be the first summer I spend in Boston ! really ...because I was in HK every summer and in New york last year. I have a list of places I wanna go and eat =) I try to explore more about this place before I go back to Hong Kong for good

I have been having nightmares in the past 2 weeks, hate it a lot. I just could not sleep well, not sure about the weather or being too stress...miss family a lot lately, some personal stuff stress from work...hopefully, everything gets better after Chinese new year !

I has a mixed feeling of frustration and confusion recently. I learned my lesson, and I figured how frustrating it would be for ignoring the one you are close to while you are having fun at another place. Now, I am the one who is being ignored ...That's what people call what comes around goes around.

However, I am trying to work things out this time. It's just a simple message. Am I asking too much? I cannot even answer myself. What is too little, what is too much? Someone ever said to me that I am needy, this still bothers me. I am actually sick of it. I have tried my best already, and it will only work when both are willing to

but ...clubbing on this Saturday did make me feel better. Not that I was upset so I went clubbing, but just I could see my dearest friends! Thanks for taking care of me! haha, thats the first time u guys needed to look after me.
It was totally not fun at all the next day i had to work at 7am ....=P