Hidden mind

It's been so long since my last update!

Talked to 3 different people recently,
they are facing different kind of troubles
actually those troubles are all about one thing but they just appear in different ways


is it wise to be honest, is it wise to be straight forward?
everyone has their own agenda,
we tend to act/ talk differently to manipulate a situation to get something we want.
The thing we want can be something materiality like money, a gift, or even a person. Other wants maybe to gain a trust from someone, or just simply a compliment.
Isn't scary? this means we are hiding some of our real thoughts in order to get something from someone.

Is it really hard to find someone who do appreciate of who you are? being yourself comfortably w/o worrying about being judged?

But i do believe if you are true to a someone, in return, he/she will be true to you too, not guarantee but at least most of time, it works.

One Month + 15 days

I am not whining this time, it is just some of my thoughts in the past few days

So, I have been working (my real job) for a month and 15 days. Seriously, I think the time passes by really slow. Not that I am unhappy, but I just feel like it is a bit pointless. I mean ...life is kinda pointless now.

Honestly, I have learned a lot, really a lot. I am sure it will payoff someday. but ...it's a bit tiring to see all the money I earn, has to go to my rent, and later, my car ....basically, working is never ending, and it has become a routine that I dont see my passion anymore but just to support my living

is life suppose to be like that? I mean, everyone has a "time-line".
like, from age 3 to 20s -> college; 20s to 30s -> working+ getting married, buying houses ...
People spend their whole life working and just to pay their house, car, clothes, I am not saying is not worth it, but is life only all about this?

I am now 23. if i live until 70, 23 is almost 1/4 of whole life
What is investment? What is worthwhile to invest in our life , our short life?