Life without thinking too much ?

I was trying to play around w/ the color in this blog, failed .The colors of this blog just doesn't look right to me. Speaking of aestheticism, I have not picked up my drawing pen for ages, no single sketch has been done ! it's a shame that I don't do art anymore. I do not have time to do that ..yea right, that's just an excuse. Try to work on photography, I like it. but not as much as painting. I miss the old days at school doing art w/ my friends together.

I have the problem of sleeping for like 3 months already..since i started this job. I have no problem falling asleep, but just keep waking up early..it happened to me a lot at the last 2 semesters in my senior year. It was all about stress.

but...what am I stressing about now? I can fall asleep in 2 seconds because I am exhausted at work. but the quality of my sleep is absolutely not good at all. My dreams are all about things I have done during the day or things I am going to do.
I try not to push myself too much, I am taking my time to figure what I need in life. unfortunately, I guess my anxieties/worries deep inside unconsciously reflect onto my body function.


Last night, I had an interesting conversation w/ my friend about " drunk texting/ talking". we always heard " people tell the truth when they are drunk". Really?
I mean ...yes, but partly true. we tend to have guts after a few cups of drinks and tend to do/say something that we normally don't do/ dare to do ( or debating about doing it or not) in real life.
ok...so since you are not even sure what you should say/do that thing in real life, why it can be considered as the truth? intoxication just makes someone think" i will say it anyways, whatever"
well, I have no idea why I am talking such a random topic here ...but I just feel like ....human being is such a complicated creature ...no matter that human being is sober/ drunk =.=


Life is fun, but sometimes it's tiring to deal w/ all the people. I miss lying on the sand, listening to the wave under the sun, peacefully.
I just need a hug, a supportive hug