Welcome to the real world

ok, it is 2:30 am but I am still up typing this post...I am actually exhausted. I definitely need some sleep, but after a long day, I really want to do something I like after work.

I just realized I have been working here for a month already! (my first 3 months working at new york after graduation doesn't really count as working, haha) I love working in general. I am so happy that I am out of school because working make me feel like I am an useful person in this society. Like what my friends and I always joking by saying I am a "society person" (社會人士) now (being sophisticated, sarcastic? haha, no Karly is still Karly)

The first 3 weeks was fun, yet overwhelming; interesting yet exhausting. I love this job because its new every single day, I never get bored and I learn A LOT.

But the past week was a frustrating week. The hotel was full house 3 days straight. Everything went wrong at the same time and every chaos happened, plus I was sick. Everything adding up did stress me out a bit, but people being mean/ rude just bothered me A LOT.


People who know me always say I have a good temper and nice, I never really get mad in front of the others. I am always open-minded and optimistic, even something bad happens, I would see that is a good way to learn. however, this week annoyed me so much that I turned out being upset. I keep telling myself to stay positive. I was so exhausted by the end of the day, I was like " at this point, I don't care anymore. If you keep being a douche, fine"

Well, choosing this field ( hotel ) , I should have known this is part of the job. Plus, I only need to deal those meanies for 5 mins at most, and I would never see them again in my life. Think it this way, some people have to put up with their stupid colleagues everyday, for me , only 5 mins with those rude guest. 5 mins in my whole life? I can handle it. ( haha...yea, am I overly optimistic? =P)
That's what I should learn in this job " try not to let others let you down".


I admit, I did have a thought of giving up, but there is always a reason to continue, right? Life is always interesting and full of surprises. While I was worn out, a guest gave me a box of chocolate from Iceland. There are many nice people out there, don't exaggerate that small group of meanie and let myself down.
Many people said" It's just a job, you can quit anytime". But for me, it's not just a job, it about a commitment. I have committed to this job and I feel bad, and of course irresponsible to JUST LEAVE. I know I will regret because I have not tried long enough.

Speaking of trying. Does this "try" cost a lot? I could have the chance of going back to Hong Kong. The guilt is still in my mind esp. after talking to my family/sis. I feel like I am not doing a great job of being a good daughter and older sister. I really want to look after them financially and psychically. After spending loads of money studying abroad, I want to give something back to the family. Staying here now, I feel helpless.

But yea,there is no going back, it is a simple but really true truth. What I have to do now is to work it out, but not complaining right ?


What can cheer me up now? Thinking of my backpacking trip ! 3:30am , time for bed ?